I am always inspired when I get to attend, via the internet, Agape International Spiritual Center and hear the living mystic known as Rev. Dr. Michael Bernard Beckwith.
There is something transformational about listening to the right message at the right time from the right person. Thank you, professor Beckwith. Love to you. Thank you for preparing the way for us to walk our best and expansive life of service.
I have been struggling with ‘getting’ what the last year has been about for me. Admittedly I have spent too much time trying to understand it, taking away from my forward-moving focus. I have had an enormous amount of #!%@ thrown my way starting in September 2010, so much so that my life does not even resemble what it was last year. THANK GOD!
I do not have the same income. 90% of it dropped away because the president of the training organization I taught for dropped me without a single consideration or word, spoken or written. This has taken some major adjustments to compensate for, mentally, emotionally, psychically, physically and spiritually; every -ly.
I do not live in the same place because I had to cut expenses. I found out that ‘friends’ ran for the hills. Many other traumatizing events that I do not wish to dig up right now. You can read hear what I did to get past it
Yes, that was the most horrifying place I have ever been as an adult. AND the truth is I was trying to fit into a global mind development training system that does not have room for an expansive soul. I have more to offer than that one simple method. I kept trying to squash myself, my visions and my ideas in order to fit in. I overlooked their indiscretions for more than three years. I finally got it: stop giving new opportunities to them to expand and update their method. They do not want it. And stop asking for help for my students because they are not interested. It was all falling on deaf ears. These opportunities must be for me.
I kept thinking “it must be me. I have to grow. Other teachers have been with them for over forty years. It must be me.” That is what the abused says to them self when they are trying to excuse the abuser. Some may think that may be an extreme place for me to take this to… it does apply in the manner in which things were handled.
Pain pushes until Vision pulls – Michael Beckwith
A Moment for Awakening
My life does not yet look anywhere close to where it is evolving into. Room for growth!
Can you feel the old, clingy, sappy, resentful energy in some of what I wrote above?
Is there an area in your life that you have some resentments?
Do you realize the price you pay for staying in that energy?
Has your life slowed down?
Do you find yourself complaining too much?
Are your thoughts full of bad thoughts towards others?
Is your energy for life low?
I heard Michael Beckwith say this:
A lot of chronic issues in life are a result of either:
- Trying to extract happiness from a world and life that is too small for you and/or
- That issue is bringing you a gift, a talent to activate within yourself (we’re growing a quality within us that is seeking to come forth)
When the 2 by 4s come fast and hard it is because you’ve broken a promise to your soul about what you are to do in this life. These are the lessons I set myself up for. They are coming hard and fast because I did not listen to the quiet voice within me telling me to make the change.
Truth is: I had three ‘readers’ who had told me in the previous two years to get out of that international company because they will screw you over. Those are the words of the channeler from Colorado and from an Akashic Record reader in Austin. I had already had many ‘small’ instances that I could have chosen to heed. Instead I chose to go along to get along just like the teachers that are still in the system told me they have had to for decades.
So, I had plenty of warning but I kept believing in something that wasn’t.
What I thought was a safe place to express my gifts to students and the world was not my safe place. It works for those who are still there. It does not work for me. They have the exercise I gave them that is being taught to the world, for which there was no recognition. I release that in grateful gratitude.
Minimal set points of society or Major set points for Living
Beckwith continued: society has set minimal points for which are good for us to follow: don’t cheat, lie and steal. But your calling does not vibrate at these minimal set points. There is no reason to squash yourself to just live by those. You have a greater set of points to live by and resonate with.
This calling does not fit into a small vision for living. It requires much more.
If you find yourself having a lot of difficulties in life change your perspective. Society has trained us to try to fit into ‘what was’. This requires you make yourself wrong, disempower yourself and shrink to fit into ‘what was’.
Instead realize that life is telling you to make some changes. Grow. Evolve. Expand your offerings to life. Live your purpose. Your new self does not fit into that old world. Say a resounding ‘YES’ within your self and mean it with all that you are.
And when your logical mind projects its fears into your future tell it: sshhh, I am in control and I am choosing to do this. When it says “but you do not have enough (fill in the blank)”. Tell it “I am doing it anyway”. When it says “I’m afraid to fail”. Say “I am doing it anyway”.
You are here to live a life of purpose. And Life is always conspiring on your behalf to bring you your highest good and your best life.
Let it. Listen to it. Heed it. Change, evolve and grow into your best life.
When you do this you give permission to someone else to say a resounding ‘YES’ to their own souls.
Blessings and share your thoughts and dreams in the comments.
Learning, Loving and Growing,