I need = actually means I need some help to activate a new potential within me.
I heard this concept from Rev. Dr. Michael Beckwith, founder of Agape International Spiritual Center. Then I took it deeper into my own experience.
When you say ‘I need’ (something). It really means that you need to activate that power within yourself. It is time to find your power in that area of life. And your spirit is reaching out asking someone for help to grow. What a different perspective from the norm?!
There are multiple mind-sets that different people come from when saying ‘I need…’ And it always means the same thing no matter how it is heard.
This ‘I need’ statement is said from the belief and the feeling that life is happening TO you. Actually, you are now in the doorway of a new opportunity to be guided into a new level of personal power and away from the societal norm of victim-hood. I understand this mind set very well. Having grown up in an alcoholic household where other dysfunctions happened I chose something very different in my early adulthood. I chose to purge that past and to learn better ways to manage myself and life. Having done this process of going from ‘I can’t’ to ‘I can’ many times I understand the inner process to transition into my power and away from my pain.
As Rev. Dr. Michael Bernard Beckwith says: Pain pushes until Vision pulls
It is difficult at times and even 20+ years after my Spiritual Awakening (which happened on the beautiful island of Bali, Indonesia) I have to catch that old mischievous thought pattern when it pops up once in a while.
Back when I first became aware of this and began the journey it was like a game of whac-a-mole. I would handle one area of life and then this belief that it was happening to me would pop up in another area of life. Then I would handle that one… and then it would pop up in another area of life… on and on. That is what we sign up for when we want to remove ourselves from the stream of normality and delve into our true nature and live the life we came here to live… not the life that others would have us live.
Then when someone has grown into their power and, for me, I have become an authority on personal growth, spiritual development, mental focus, stress management, etc via coaching, teaching, speaking, writing, et al, there will still be times when life feels like it is happening to us… once again. New opportunities to grow!
There is a song: Life is calling me a little bit deeper than before. (If I find a link I’ll connect it here)
This happened several months ago in the biggest way it has ever occurred in my adult life with authorities attacking me, slandering me, people gossiping (talking about me and not to me), financial income disappeared without any warning and every single aspect in my life (except my partner and cat) became topsy-turvy. That is when the teacher, me, needed help which was not quick in forthcoming from friends and others, perhaps representing my stubbornness to not change? Perhaps representing time for upgrades in the friends department of my life?
From terror to peace
It really was a bad dream. Almost every person who I thought cared about me and was part of my friend, student or spiritual support system, whether I knew them for a few years or for a decade, would disappear when I reached out for help; one long-term person even attacked me with her partner’s help for having these problems in life. Blaming me for being down and kicking me through her projection of blame. Whew, this was turning into an additional lesson to develop my wisdom about friendships and who I extend my heart to. Plus a clear sign to go within myself to be led to the answers.
I knew where I needed to be in my mind/heart/nervous system set point but I could not find the way to get there by myself. As I felt those old feelings of being consumed by other peoples’ crap and I felt as though I was drowning ‘under’ the old way of perceiving life I reached that point of proclaiming ‘I am not going to take it anymore!’
I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE IT ANYMORE!
That is when I finally reached out to a shaman friend, Joy, from New Zealand – lives in South America currently. It took her knowing for me, guiding me and using her skills for me to find a new and much deeper sense of personal power and to create a new self-identity from this new level of comprehension, depth and power.
Everyone in life plays their roles perfectly for us to grow into our True Selves
And to realize that EVERYONE in life plays their roles for me to find more personal power and for me to dig deeper within so that I rise above it. I had to claim this even for the antagonists, even the gossipers, even those who lied, even those friends who did not have the ability/willingness to help when needed, even the persons who promised help and did not deliver when I asked, even the head of an international training organization who slandered and attacked me as I kept finding ways to resolve things and sought peace with her, even the landlord whose home was a health hazard as determined by the city, even the previous spiritual support people who were not there, even… on and on…
I NEEDED help to find my new footing into a deeper and new level of life.
Life is always providing us opportunities to achieve our dreams
and to find our power. It is not always pretty and tidy.
Joy used her skills to hold my hand (via Skype) and take me through the process. I found it. Hallelujah!
It was then that I could stop saying ‘I need…’ Instead I could now proclaim ‘I have found a new self within me’ and begin to integrate this new perspective and new awareness to unleash this Universal power into my life. That is when things first began to turn around. It then continued to unfold as I integrated it into all those areas that simultaneously needed a life upgrade. It took a while to integrate because it was in so many areas of life (friends, supporters, self perception, home, finances, business, auto, etc). I was discovering how to come from this new self with Universal power in each affected area of life. It was time to do my inner work using these new skills and perspectives.
A long time ago I signed up for a life that was different from the societal norm.
In my late twenties I moved to Denver where two close friends had moved to. We did constant spiritual exploration together; reading, meditating, workshops, trying to channel, etc. We each committed within ourselves in our own ceremony that our individual primary commitment for the rest of life was to our personal growth and to the spirit inside us coming forth in life. I signed up for it and this is what it requires at times to achieve it.
Considering the situation that began in 2010, nine months later I am seeing the benefits beginning to show up in my external life. All that inner work is now causing external changes that reflect the new person inside. PLUS the greatest reward is that I feel like a different and new person. I am much wiser, my vision is much clearer and my service comes from a much deeper place within me.
This is what Personal Freedom feels like
I have such a profound change in life that I feel more empowered and capable; those aren’t even enough words to convey the deep swirling of energies that I now feel more constantly inside me. The conscious path may seem daunting or even impossible at times… And you can be guaranteed one thing: on the other side of the mountain climb lies the fields of glory where the rewards will be reaped for a lifetime.
And it all began with an ‘I need…’ statement that turned into a journey of a lifetime.
Now, to continue my journey, mission and purpose.
Thanks for reading/listening. Supportive questions and comments are welcome.
My blessing for you
May you find your way through the weeds of other peoples’ control over your life onto your own unique path to find your True and Authentic Self to unleash your Soul’s Dreams to be made manifest. May you hear the gentle and loving voice of your guidance to walk this path and proclaim to the world: I AM HERE AND I AM READY TO SHINE!